DISCOURAGEMENT, LONELINESS, AND HOPE

I am discouraged. My dear friend is making what I am gravely afraid are bad choices. I want to be with someone and I cannot have a relationship with that person at that point in time. For some reason, I am not someone who makes friends who push into my life to be supportive. All of these things get me discouraged. And lonely. But then I remember that I have hope. While on the one hand I really wish I were in control of life, it is freeing to give up the illusions of control and then be free to laugh and to hope because God is on the throne. I think I learned to do that a little bit more today.


I wish I could remember the fact that life is not about feeling good but about finding God, but I guess part of the process of finding God is not being so secure in finding him all the time, but to wrestle with my unbelief.